The writing style is terrible and the plot doesn’t even make sense. See, the official title of my fic was Skies of Arcadia People Go to NYC!! Basically, the 3 main characters get transported to NYC and have crazy-ass adventures. But then it switches to 14-year-old me in my room, writing the exact same fanfic (kinda like The Neverending Story, but not.) Well, long story short, the 5 Valuan Admirals crash my room, throw me out, and take over my fanfic. For the rest of the story, it’s up to 14-year-old Meredith to reclaim her house and fanfic.

So I decided to take a few snippets from the fic and post them here. WARNING, the fic is not well-written and kinda stupid, so read at your own risk (if you care or are just plain bored.) And you don’t really need to know the characters to read this, seeing as it’s not canon at all and takes place in another world. In the words of Aika when she throws her boomerang, “Here goes!”:

Meanwhile, while Meredith was writing this exact story on her laptop in her room, 5 people suddenly crashed through the window. It was the 5 Valuan admirals!

“OK, what are you freaks doing in my room?” asked Meredith.

“You know exactly why we’re in your room!” said De Loco.

“No, I really don’t.”

“Tell her, Belleza!”

Belleza steps up.

“Well, Meredith, we came here so we can have a part in your fanfic.” she said.

“Well, couldn’t you have at least used the door so you could tell me that?”

“No, no we couldn’t. So, do we have parts in your fanfic?”

“What exactly do you want me to put in this fanfic?”

Meredith was immediately pelted with suggestions.

“I want to kill Vyse!”

“I want to ram my ship into something!”

“I want a sex scene with Aika!”

“I want to flick my hair back 100 times!”

“I want a sex scene with Vyse!”

Meredith thought about it for a second and finally came up with an answer.

“No, no, no, no, and no! Those suggestions suck.”

“Even my sex scene with Aika?” asked Vigoro.

“Especially your sex scene with Aika! I talked to her about you last week, and I can assure you that she does not want a sex scene with you!”

(Cuts to a scene with Mer and Aika talking)

“So.”

“So.”

“Hey Mer, want a cigarette?”

“No thanx.”

(Scene ends)

“…OK, that wasn’t it, but seriously, I’m not putting that scene or any other of those scenes in this story.”

“Well then, we’ll have to do this the hard way, now don’t we?” asked Alfonso.

“Uhhh, what?”

“COME ANTONIO!!!!”

“NO, NOT ANTONIO!!!”

The giant metal bull suddenly came into Mer’s room.

“ANTONIO, DISPOSE OF HER!!!”

Antonio started charging at Mer, but she jumped out the window before it hit her. When she was outside, she said, “Oh god! There’re Valuans in my room! Touching my stuff, messing up my fanfic! I’ve gotta get back inside!”

<SNIP>

“Damn! They locked me out of my own house,” said Meredith. “I guess the only way back in is by going through the window!” So Meredith started climbing on the side of the house to get to her window.

<SNIP>

“BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! I’VE FINALLY KILLED HIM!!! YES!!!” screamed De Loco.

“That’s enough of that!” said Gregorio. “It’s my turn now!”

Just as he said that, Meredith came through the window holding a sword she found lying on the ground outside. She pointed it at the admirals and said, “Get out of my room, Valuan scum!”

“Don’t be so dramatic!” said De Loco.

“Screw you!”

“YOU SCREW YOU!!”

“Don’t worry, I’ll take care of this.” Belleza whispered to the other admirals. She started to walk toward Mer. “Look, Mer,” she started. “If you let us write this fanfic, we’ll make it worth your while.”

“Whadda have in mind?” asked Mer.

“If you let us finish the fanfic, we’ll make you the sixth admiral of the Valuan Armada! We’ve been needing a sixth one since Ramirez quit.”

Mer thought about it for a sec.

“Hmmmmmmmmmmm, maybe I should… wait, WHY AM I EVEN THINKING ABOUT THIS?!?! I HATE VALUA!!!!! YOU PEOPLE SUCK!!!!! I’M NOT GONNA BE YOUR SIXTH ADMIRAL!!!!” screamed Mer.

“OK,” said Belleza. “I respect your opin….NOW! NOW!!”

Before Mer knew what was going on, all the admirals got on top of her, tied her up, and stuffed her under the bed.

“Finally, I can type my portion of the fanfic.” said Gregorio, and that’s exactly what he did.

/END FOR NOW

There is more to this, but my eyes hurt, so I might get it up later (thatswhatshesaid.) See ya!

So I go back to college this Sunday. As a Senior 2. Holy shit, that’s terrifying. I have A LOT to do before I graduate. I have to write roughly 60 more pages and edit the 40 I’ve already written. I’m panicking a bit, but I know I’ll get it done. Seniors are graded with progress grades at my school (S, S-, and U, with S being the highest.) I took 3 courses for my senior project and got S’s in all of them, so I know I shouldn’t be worried. And my profs keep telling me that they think I’m doing fine. I’m still really worried though. I didn’t get as much done as I wanted to over break and I still have A LOT to do. And I want to make it really good. But I just gotta keep telling myself that it’ll happen. And I gotta calm down. I have the tendency to freeze and do nothing  whenever I get too nervous. Can’t afford to do that now. It’ll be fine, I know it will, I have to tell myself that enough times and then I’ll believe it.

BTW, sorry that Ghostbusters Christmas post never showed up. I might still finish it, but more realistically, I’ll probably wait until next Christmas. I’m exhausted, going to bed now, g’night! And I just realized that this is my first post of 2010, so Happy New Year everyone!!

So I was on Facebook Saturday night, sitting on my couch with the TV on in the background. Cartoon Network’s cousin, Boomerang, was having a Christmas special marathon. Being a lover of old school Christmas specials, I kept the TV on Boomerang. At one point, the 1982 Smurfs Christmas Special came on. That was one of the few vintage Christmas specials that I had never seen so I decided to half-watch it. And in all honesty, I could have gone the rest of my life without seeing this special. Here’s my version of what happened:

So it’s Christmas Eve and a little a boy and girl are traveling with their grandfather in a one horse open sleigh. They’re going to visit their rich uncle in his mansion. D’awww, it’s so sweet at first; the children ask their grandpa if Santa really exists and he says yes and they’re all so happy and joyful. And then ZOMG this dark-hooded figure is seen watching the sleigh from the woods. This creepy guy has a pack of wolves at his side, which he sicks on the sleigh. The sleigh turns over and grandpa is stuck underneath, completely unconscious.

That’s an actual picture of semi-dead grandpa trapped under the sleigh. God smurfing smurf it, I thought this was supposed to be a smurfing children’s cartoon! But no, wait for it, this gets much worse.

So these poor kids are sad and scared and go looking for help. They come upon Gargamel, the series resident douchebag, and ask him for assistance. But Gargamel sends them away because he’s too busy trying to find a way to destroy the smurfs. So the kids leave and a wolf follows them. Suddenly, the whole wolf pack backs the kids up against a tree and surrounds them. Scary death music is playing in the background and the little girl starts singing “Silent Night.” That was the first time I looked up from facebook; it sounded really disturbing.

Luckily, Papa Smurf comes to the rescue!! He basically tells the wolves to smurf off and, I smurf you not, the wolves actually listen to him!! The kids think Papa Smurf is Santa Claus, so they automatically trust him. They tell him about their grandpa and ask for help. Smurf it, if I were lost in the woods and I saw tiny blue creatures, I’d think I was suffering from the effects of some hallucinogenic drug. It would make sense, their houses are allusions to weed… Anyway, the smurfs help the children and sing a song about goodness making the badness go away (more info on this later.) The smurfs find the overturned sleigh, and instead of finding grandpa, they find a note. The note is from the kids’ uncle; apparently grandpa is okay and the children are directed to stay by the sleigh until their uncle comes to get them.

Meanwhile, that same mysterious figure from the forest enters Gargamel’s castle. He tells Gargamel that he can give him the power to destroy the smurfs. However, Gargamel must first find the children and bring them to this “mysterious stranger” as he is referred to. This stranger seeks revenge against the kids’ uncle and grandfather; apparently they’re do-gooders who get in the way of his “work.”

For the love of… ugh, this is only going to get worse. Gargamel complies and kidnaps the children while they’re waiting by the sled. The smurfs follow the tracks in an attempt to save the children. While they’re doing that, Gargamel uses the spell that the stranger gave him and destroys the Smurf village.

OK, here’s where it gets REALLY sick: The mysterious stranger tied the kids up and he’s dragging them across the snow. Gargamel and Azrael are following close behind. The kids complain of being tired and that they can’t walk anymore. The stranger says that’s okay and that this place will do nicely. OK, this is where you really start to realize that something’s smurfed up here. Just read the following dialogue:

Stranger (to Gargamel): You will accompany me and the children on what I regard as… The Final Journey.

Me: *looks up from laptop*

Little Girl: You said no more walking.

S: We won’t be walking, my dear child.

Gargamel: W-w-where are you taking us?

S: Home! MY Home!! I’m quite sure you’ll like it.

Me: Whoa, wait a second here…

*Gargamel runs*

S: NO ONE LEAVES UNTIL AFTER THE CEREMONY!!

And then this happens:

Me: O_O You have got to be kidding me…

LG: Please!! You’re scaring me!!

^(Just look at the creepy son on a smurf)

S *chanting* Fire Fire burning bright, bring us home this very night!!

LG: Stop, please stop!!

Back to post form: I think it’s obvious now. This guy is the Devil himself. Satan. Lucifer. The Fallen Angel. THIS GUY IS SMURFING SATAN!!! IN A CHILDREN’S CHRISTMAS CARTOON! HE’S TRYING TO BRING LITTLE CHILDREN TO HELL ON CHRISTMAS EVE!! WHAT THE SMURF KIND OF PLOT FOR A CHRISTMAS SPECIAL IS THIS?!?! I MEAN, MY GOD!!!! These kids are going to spend a smurf ton of money on therapy for the PTSD they’re going to have…

Anyway, the Smurfs are looking on from a nearby hill, wondering what they can do to help. Papa Smurf says that the only thing that will destroy hate is love. So the smurfs are told to sing!! Sing with smurfing love in their hearts!!

Goodness makes the badness go away!

Goodness makes the happy every day!

Badness cannot start

If there’s goodness in your heart!

Goodness makes the badness go away!

This is bad. This is really bad. I mean, the Smurfs are battling Satan for Christ’s sake! Do you know how serious this is?! It’s so serious that smurfing GARGAMEL starts singing the goodness song!! He’s the main villain of the series and he’s terrified of this “mysterious stranger,” who, btw, is SATAN.The fact that Gargamel is terrified enough to sing a song about goodness  proves that this guy is the Devil.

Anyway, the smurfs, good little Christian warriors that they are, destroy Satan with their song. Imagine that; the products of hallucinogens defeating Satan. When the Rapture happens and most of us are left behind, we can just shoot ourselves up with smurfing ecstasy and smoke pot until the Smurfs show up. They will then sing their Sesame Street-esque motivational song and defeat Satan. At least we got that from this special. God smurf it.

After Satan fades away, the kids find their uncle, and the Smurfs return to their village only to find it destroyed. But hark! It is Christmas, the time for miracles! Now that we’ve gotten through the Satanic ritual, let’s return to old school Christmas themes shall we? One of the smurfs blows on his trumpet and suddenly, Smurf Village is restored and their Christmas tree comes back to life. Everyone’s happy. The end.

OK, I can honestly say that this was one of the most terrifying and disturbing Christmas specials I’ve ever seen. And I saw this for the very first time when I was 22!! Just a few days ago! And it STILL hasn’t left my mind!! I’m sure that this scared most kids when they saw it, simply because it does have some pretty scary scenes. But I’m sure most of them didn’t make the connection to Satan. What kind of sick fuck thought it would be okay to put this in a Christmas special?! And a Smurf Christmas special no less?! Do yourself a favor and STAY AWAY FROM THIS ONE. Basically, Satan is angry that there are good people in the world, so he tries to get revenge by trying to take 2 children to Hell on Christmas Eve. What the smurf does that have to do with Christmas?!If you’re brave enough, the special is on Youtube. And it’s going to be on Boomerang again at 6:30 PM on Christmas Eve. But seriously, I recommend that you don’t watch it.

Ugh, I think I’m going to watch Baby Smurf’s First Christmas. It might be a nice palate cleanser. And I’ll do the Ghostbusters Christmas special next. I don’t think I can talk about this Smurf special anymore, Merry Christmas guys. Be wary of Satan.

My absolute favorite Christmas special is Jim Henson’s The Christmas Toy. Y’know, the one with the stuffed tiger named Rugby who didn’t understand the meaning of Christmas. I watch it every year on Christmas Eve. It gets me misty-eyed everytime, especially that part where we think Mew the mouse has been frozen forever ;_; And Rugby sings something like “Old friend, dear friend, friend who has gone away. I want to tell you *sniff* I love you.” OMG, I got goosebumps just writing that, gets me every time. It’s a really sweet special. If you haven’t seen it, it’s actually on YouTube now:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4hDQE2wGmGM But I prefer my 1987 VHS tape with the Kraft commercials. During the commercials, this guy would give you Kraft Holiday recipes. They were really disgusting actually. I think there was one recipe where you mix cheese with brown sugar or some shit, I dunno. But I have fond memories of those commercials regardless. I love the jingle too: Celebrate the Season with Kraft. Classic

I have lots of other Christmas specials I love too. Here are some of my all time favorites (excluding The Christmas Toy):

Nestor the Long-Eared Christmas Donkey

A Muppet Family Christmas

Alvin and the Chipmunks Christmas

Christmas Eve on Sesame Street

Pee-Wee’s Christmas Special

The Little Drummer Boy

Garfield’s Christmas

Annabelle’s Wish

Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer (of course)

Ghostbusters Christmas: X-Mas Marks the Spot (it is SO ridiculous, my next post will be a review of this)

Noel

Inspector Gadget Saves Christmas

Small One

Frosty the Snowman

Santa Claus is Coming to Town

I KNOW I’m forgetting something, but that’s all I can think of for nowl.

And on an unrelated note, my god it’s 1 AM and the snow plows are going crazy (got quite a bit of snow today and it’s still going strong.) Dang, I’m going to bed now, g’night guys ^_^

I was also considered to co-teach a course next semester, which was a huge honor. I’ve never been considered to do something like that in my life, so that was pretty awesome. I unfortunately can’t do it b/c I’m gonna be really busy next semester, but I’m still going to take the course. my prof wants me to give him a bibliography of some of my literature. I wrote down 4 titles, and I’m going to give it to him on Monday. This is gonna be SWEET!!

I’m also kind of worried about my senior project, b/c I’ve run out of sources and desperately need more. I’m going to a library at one of the large state schools this weekend, so that should help. I may need to bring a change of pants, b/c I might cream myself when I see the sources there (I know, TMI, sorry.)

Basically, I’m writing this b/c I want the people who were worried about me to know that I’m much better now. I feel like my normal self again, and I hope it stays that way for awhile. I’m okay with average annoyances that come with college (that’s what she said?) but I’m not okay with the debilitating stuff (and it took me off guard b/c I haven’t felt like that in over a year.) Luckily, that looks like it’s mostly done with. Thanks to all of you who showed your support. You have no idea how much it meant to me ^_^

My anger started around October 12th-13th. There were minor annoyances before then that pissed me off, but my anger never reached the extent it is now. Something happened around those days that really set me off. You may be able to guess what it is by looking at my last entry. I don’t want to go into too much detail. But since then, I’ve been getting angry over EVERY. LITTLE. THING. And I hate it. I don’t like being angry. It’s not who I am. All of my anger stems back to an incident that occurred around those days (as a psychologist in training, it’s be bad if I couldn’t find the source of my anger, hehe.) I just need to find a way to work through it. I’m going to try to see somebody at the health services either tomorrow or sometime really soon. I don’t want to be this angry. I feel like people know that I’m angry and thus don’t want to be around me.  I also feel like all of my close friends either transferred or left. And I’m already kind of a loner. I’m just isolating myself even more. I know there are a lot of people who like me, but the mood I’m in right now just makes it hard to remember that. Sorry I’m so emo, I’ve just had a very rough couple of weeks.

I also have A LOT of work to do. And sometimes I think I’m not smart enough to do it, or that I’m not worthy to be a college senior, like everyone is better than I am. And I know that’s not true either. Damn, is Aunt Flow visiting soon or something? Maybe that has something to do with it…

Also, I had to make a semi-goodbye topic on CR. I just don’t have the time to go on there as much anymore. I love that place, so that kind of sucks. *sigh* I can’t wait to work out these issues with somebody. I feel like total shit right now.

I’m so sorry this is an emo post. It’s been so long since I wrote a post, and this is what you’re given. I’m really sorry. I hope I’m just having an off-weekend and that this doesn’t become a chronic problem.

All right, thanks for reading, and so sorry once again that this is emo.

So I’m taking a really cool class called Psychotherapies this semester. I am learning A LOT. The materials are interesting and I’m getting a lot of info for my senior project ^_^ But there’s one negative: the class discussions.

Now, I normally don’t vocally participate in my classes anyway. I’d much rather listen (though I am vocally participating more now than I have been in years.) Anyway, some people in that class can be REALLY aggressive. And in all honesty, it’s really pissing me off. Don’t get me wrong, I love a good debate. We’ve had very enthralling debates in that class, and some people have given me a new perspective on certain topics (like today for example.) But there’s a difference between debating and being completely disrespectful. There have been classes where people interrupt each other, don’t listen to others opinions, are always on the offensive, etc. I mean, what the fuck, this is a fucking Psychotherapies class!! Most of us want to go into the social work/psychological field someday. Most of the reading we’ve been doing emphasizes the importance of listening to your clients and making them feel comfortable. I mean, shit, I find the behavior of some of the kids in my class really ironic. Oh well, maybe I’m just annoyed because i’m a senior, I dunno. Disrespect is just one of my biggest pet peeves.

Also, I’d like to talk about Albert Ellis a little bit, since that was the whole debate today. Ellis created Rational Emotive Behavior Therapy (REBT.) In my opinion, the technique is, to put it bluntly, complete bullshit. Don’t get me wrong, I think there are a few positive ideas in the techniques, but for the most part, I think REBT is a horrible way to conduct therapy. The therapist is basically the dominating parent to a client’s submissive child. The client talks about her feelings (ex. my father criticized everything I did so now I’m critical of everything I do and feel horrible about myself) and the therapist basically dismisses all of her feelings. He tells her she’s wrong in her thinking process and that her feelings are worthless and arbitrary. And no, I’m not exaggerating, that’s what REBT is. I think it’s a poor way to conduct therapy. No empathy is involved, which I believe to be the most important part of the therapeutic alliance. I think that dismissing a client’s feelings could lower her self-esteem and alienate the client from the therapist. This is really detrimental to the client’s well-being, especially since the main reason somebody goes to therapy is because she wants to help herself. Granted, sometimes “tough love” is a good approach for certain people. But not everybody, and I sure as hell wouldn’t use it on someone who I know doesn’t need to hear something like that. It’s really insensitive and unhelpful.

I also don’t like that Ellis ignores (unless it’s REALLY necessary) childhood experiences and family of origin. Childhood plays a VERY key role in many problems clients are having and it’s important that they be looked into. I know Ellis wants to stay in the present, but if something from the past is preventing you from moving forward in the present, then the past NEEDS to be revisited. Sigh…

I have a paper due for Creative Psych tomorrow. I finished it, but it’s a piece of shit that needs to be edited. It probably won’t be that great once I’ve edited it though, b/c I didn’t really have passion for the assignment and I’m still confused as to what the assignment was really supposed to be. Oh well, I can only do my best…

My dad’s coming on Saturday for parents day! I’m soooo excited! I’ll get off campus, have food that doesn’t suck, and relax from schoolwork for a while (I’ve been really stressed honestly o_O) I really can’t wait for the weekend

Supposedly there’s a Homecoming party tonight. We already had a parade through campus today. We also gathered around the dining hall and listened to people talk about how our rivals suck XD It’s funny b/c my school doesn’t usually do stuff like that. But anyway, there’s supposed to be a party in the campus center tonight announcing who the Homecoming King and Queen are. But I have no idea what time it starts. I hear music, but it’s coming from the party dorm. If things get rowdier in the direction of the campus center, I guess I’ll know that the party has started. Well, I’ll just bide my time.

Also, remember the Miego fic I talked about a few weeks ago? I’m thinking of changing it a little. I think I’m going to take the pregnancy factor out. I’ve written too many fics with the pregnancy undertones and I’d really like to do something canon. If I just take the pregnancy out of the fic, it’ll be canon. So it’ll mostly be the same story, but without the pregnancy. When I have more time, I’ll write it up ^_^

“OK, before I state my opinion, I would like to go on the record as saying this: my opinions are not politically based. I don’t generally like to talk about my political orientation on public internet forums (I don’t like debating/confrontation, especially on the internet.) I’m looking at this issue through a purely psychological perspective and nothing more. That being said:

Against what is probably popular opinion (amongst school-aged kids anyway,) I’m in favor of cutting summer vacation short. I don’t really think shaving a week or two off of summer vacation is going to kill anybody. In fact, I think it will be more beneficial in the long run; students tend to forget a lot of what they learned during summer break. Perhaps with a shorter summer break, students will be better able to retain information they learned throughout the school year. Their memories will be sharper, basically, which means higher success rates in the classroom. And if students are able to remember more of what they previously learned, academic stress rates could possibly decrease. So I think the idea of shorter summer vacations is a good one.

Longer school days however; now that’s a completely different story. I’m pretty sure the average school day is about 7 hours, as people here have already said. IMHO, it doesn’t need to be any longer. School, especially high school, is an extremely stressful setting. And I’m not just talking about the academics; social factors play a huge role in the high school experience as well. What if a kid is constantly being picked on by his peers? Extending the school day will just subject the kid to more ridicule, which can deeply affect his self-esteem and mental health. And when you add high academic expectations on top of social stress, then you’ve really got a problem. Depression and other mental health issues start to kick in, which is, needless to say, extremely detrimental. And as some of you have already said, the increased stress levels could possibly raise drop-out rates, which is also detrimental. Basically, extending the school day by a few hours can cause more harm than good.

TL;DR: I’m in favor of shorter summer vacations, but I’m strongly against lengthening the average school day.”

Of course, somebody I know IRL made a good point: what will the extra hours be used for? If they are used for something creatively productive, like art, music, etc., then I may slightly change my opinion. I’m waiting to hear more about the proposal.

Oh, and I didn’t say it on CR, but I’ll say it here since this is my personal blog: in case you couldn’t tell by the fact that I live in Vermont, I am a liberal. I love Obama, and I personally believe that he has American children’s best interests at heart. I just disagree with the fact that longer school days will be more productive. But as I said, I’m still waiting to hear more on the subject.

Also, not that anybody would, please don’t try to debate me on this. I HATE political debates and confrontations in general. I just wanted to state a more in-depth version of my opinion on my personal blog. It’s totally fine if you disagree with me, but please don’t engage me in an argument. Thank you

G’night guys!